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|Preventing Reaccessing of the Survivor
This is by far one of the most important chapters I have written
in this book. Why?
Deprogramming cannot be consistently successful if the person is
still in contact with the abusers. Survivors will take one step
forward, then will find themselves knocked down internally. All
the hard work in therapy will be undone or set back. They and
their therapist will find that they have trouble finding
internal alters. Whole systems may shut down. A child presenting
system may come out. Confusers and scramblers will take over
therapy sessions and blockers will block therapy.
No one chapter can ever be totally comprehensive in how to
prevent reaccessing. What I will share are some of the more
common ways that the cult and trainers will try to reaccess
individuals, and give some techniques on avoiding this.
The cult has a vested interest in keeping its members. After
all, it has spent generations telling its members that if they
leave they will die, be killed, or go psychotic. It makes them
quite unhappy to see someone who is quite alive and very clearly
not psychotic leave. It also makes their more restive members
question the truth of what they have been told if they see
someone get out. Having a member leave may break the hold of
some programming in other members. Trainers especially hate to
see anyone leave, and grind their teeth over this problem at
night. People leaving the cult is considered a training failure
and the trainers may be punished severely.
So, the cult has come up with certain ways to keep their members
with them, willingly or unwillingly. These include, but are not
E.T. phone home (phone programming) : the individual will have
personalities whose sole job is to call and report to the
trainer or cult leader. These are often young child alters who
are eager to please, starved for attention and nurture, and who
are heavily rewarded for calling back in. Any survivor who
attempts to leave the cult must deal with the urge to phone
home. To phone their abusers. To phone their friends who are in
the group. To phone their parents, siblings, cousins, or aunts.
This urge may become overwhelming at times and worst of all, the
survivor may be totally amnesic to the fact that the people they
are calling are cult members who are urging them, in code, to
come back. Common phrases used include: your 'family' loves you,
misses you, needs you. So and so is ill and needs to see you.
You are so special to us. You are so valuable. You need to come
see us. Why are you so distant? Why haven't we heard from you
The list goes on and on. Sweet, kind phrases with double
meanings, placed in the person during training sessions.
Trainers are not stupid and know that if cult members said
"come to the ritual meeting at midnight next week",
the survivor would run the other way, and be validated as well
that they are not making things up. So, they ingrain code
messages behind innocuous phrases such as described above.
These, and other messages, are meant to trigger recontact
In recontact programming, (ALL ILLUMINATI MEMBERS HAVE RECONTACT
PROGRAMMING, IT IS NEVER LEFT TO CHANCE) the person has parts
whose only job is to have contact with their trainer or cult
leader, or accountability person (person one step above them in
the cult). These parts are heavily programmed under drugs,
hypnosis, shock, torture, to have recontact. The individual will
feel restless, shaky, weepy, afraid if they try to break this
programming. It will often be linked or joined in to suicidal
programming (see previous chapter for more on suicidal
programming). They may experience PTSD symptomology, or even
flood programming, and internal self punishment sequences, as
they fight this programming internally.
Siblings are often cross trained to access each other with
special codes. Remember when.... may initiate this. I love you,
or, your family loves you, can also be used. Phrases will be
individual, depending on the person's family members and
Certain clothing or jewelry worn can be used to draw a cult
loyal system, such as a color coded system, or jewel system , to
the front. The person must physically resemble the person the
individual was "keyed into" during the programming
sequence, to prevent inadvertent popping out of alters by anyone
wearing a ruby pin, for example. This kind of cueing will be
based on sight recognition of a person, plus the clothing color
or jewelry being worn a certain way.
Phone calls from concerned family members, friends, and cult
members will flood the survivor's phone lines and answering
machine, especially during the initial getting out phase.
Hang up calls, three or six in a row, or calls where a series of
tones are heard, may be used as cues to recall the individual
and fire off internal programming.
Birthday, holiday or we miss you cards, or letters, may be sent
with trigger codes imbedded in them.
Flowers with a certain number of flowers, or color may be sent.
Daisies may fire off daisy programming internally.
The possibilities are almost endless, depending on the trainers,
the group the person was with, and the people they are most
bonded to in the cult. Special training sessions will be given,
with code words and cues built into the system's programming.
If all else fails, hostility will start. "You don't love
us" will be heard, even when the survivor has stated
repeatedly that they care. Boundaries drawn with cult members
will be misinterpreted as lack of concern, or withdrawal.
Accusations, guilt, and anger as well as manipulation will be
used as hooks to make the survivor feel guilty for withdrawing
from the cult.
Isolation programming may activate, as the cult support system
is withdrawn in the survivor's life, and they try the difficult
task of developing healthy, appropriate relationships outside of
the cult. Often, the therapist will be the survivor's lifeline
and sole support at first. The individual may fall into
codependent relationships quickly, or relationships with other
survivors to fill the void in their life. At worst, desperate
for caring and feeling isolated, they will make friends with the
first kind person they meet. This person could be a cult set up,
sent to initiate a friendship quickly. Survivors should be wary
of "instant friendships" or instant bonding with
others. Most good relationships take time and effort.
One of the most difficult tasks, but most important safety wise,
will be for a totally amnesic presenting system to realize who
their abusers really are. It will seem unbelievable, when back
parts come up in therapy, and disclose that beloved, or even
barely tolerated family members are in the cult. Believing these
parts and listening to them will be crucial to safety.
Protectors will be important to the survivor's safety,
especially if they are willing to give up cult allegiance and
help keep the person safe. Outside accountability with safe
persons is extremely important. The problem is that generational
Illuminati survivors have often been surrounded all their lives
by a network of other cult members. Unknown to them, their
closest friends and family members are part of the group.
Amnesia poses the greatest danger to the survivor in the
beginning stages, as they will trust people before they remember
that they are unsafe.
A survivor may remember the father taking them to rituals, and
believe that their mother or grandparent is safe. Only later in
therapy will they remember that mother or granny was actually
their trainer, since the most painful memories tend to come
later. The survivor may only remember ritual abuse in early
childhood, and think they were let go at a certain age. This is
extremely rare, since the group has put in years of effort into
training them. Almost never will they just "let someone
go" in generational families. But they may be given false
or screen memories, especially if they are in therapy, to
confuse the survivor and the therapist.
The client will need to listen to and believe internal parts who
have more information than they do, and take appropriate steps
to be safe. This will probably mean cutting off contact with
perpetrators at this point. Again, outside accountability is
paramount. Safe houses, a women's shelter or a safe church
family may be alternatives. One of the worst things the survivor
can do is isolate, or go out walking late at night alone, or go
camping in the woods by themselves. Abduction will often occur
in these scenarios, when the survivor is alone and vulnerable.
Safe roommates can help keep the survivor safe.
Locking up the phone in the trunk of the car may help if phone
programming is intense. This gives the survivor the chance to
wake up or stop phone calls, if an alter has to get up, find the
car keys, turn on the light, go outside, and open a car trunk,
bring the phone inside and hook it up again before making a
Building a support system through safe support groups, a good
therapist, church, or work can also help. Whenever possible and
practical, moving away from the town or state where the survivor
was active in the cult can help. Why? Remember the survivor's
whole support network was the cult in their old town. The
trainers and/or family members have invested time and effort
into the survivor and have a big stake in their coming back. If
the survivor moves far enough away, a cult group in the new city
or state will not know them as well, and will not have a lengthy
history with them. This can help decrease the chance of
reaccessing by the cult, in conjunction with good therapy and a
safe support network.
The survivor will have to rebuild their support system anyway,
so why not do it as far as possible away from people they have
known who might hurt them? It can be intensely triggering to the
survivor to see their old trainer walking down the street
towards them, and inside alters may destabilize or feel unsafe.
This is one case where distance is good.
One caution though: even if the survivor moves, they will need
to work intensely on blocking internal recontact programming at
the same time, or they may be quickly reaccessed. Trainers will
often send the person's system codes and grids over the internet
to cult groups in the new city, and will try to send someone who
physically resembles the trainer or a family member to initiate
contact with the survivor.
Internal communication and letting inside alters know that they
can change their jobs will help. Reward internal reporters for
changing allegiance and committing to keep the survivor safe.
The cult used to reward them for doing their job; now the
survivor can reward them for changing jobs. Develop new
interests, work or hobbies that can help the survivor meet new,
safe people. The survivor may want to practice friendship skills
in support groups, as long as they are run by reputable, safe
Be aware that holiday dates are often important dates for
reaccessing. Calendars are available that show important
holidays for SRA groups. Birthdays are also dates when the
individual is expected to return and there may be programming
Callback programming (where the person is given a specific date
or holiday when they are to return to the cult, or be punished)
may need to be broken as well. Allowing the alters who went
through the programming to share their memories, acknowledging
their needs, and trying to meet those needs in healthy ways will
The survivor will need to go through a period of grieving for
loss of contact with family members and friends in the cult. No
matter how abusive, how disliked, it can be very difficult to
cut off with perpetrators, especially if they were the only
people close to the survivor. The survivor needs to acknowledge
the difficulty of creating a new, healthy, cultless support
group. The survivor needs to recognize that learning new skills
and developing healthy friendships will take time.
One issue often brought up by survivors is: how much do I tell
others about my past? This is an individual decision that the
survivor and therapist need to look at together. In general
though, caution in sharing is best, since sharing too much about
the survivor's past may draw the wrong people to them. These
people may be dysfunctional, or possible cult members. It is
usually best to base new, non cult friendships on healthy
aspects of the person at first and very gradually share small
bits of information as the friendship progresses, and sharing
seems appropriate. With time and opportunities, the survivor
will learn the importance of appropriate boundaries and will
want healthier relationships in their life.
Used by permission
you are going to work with ritual abuse survivors, you
must also get educated if you want to be effective. And
you must learn to be humble. Trauma survivors do not need
to be around ignorant, modern-day Pharisees. Survivors in
pain need people who will connect with them on an
emotional level, get right down in there where they are,
and listen. --Kathleen Sullivan