Headaches & Multiplicity
By Sara Lambert
The single most common
neurological symptom reported in MPD is headache. (Frank Putnam)
Suffering frequent headaches is so typical an experience for
multiples that it is one of the major clues psychologists look for
when diagnosing MPD. Most multiples report that their headaches
are extremely painful, often to the point of being literally
blinding. Medication seldom works to relieve the pressure or pain.
There are some different explanations for why multiples get more
headaches than the general population.
STRESS: Life can be
very stressful for multiples. In addition to normal daily
problems, you have to deal with post-traumatic stress arising from
your abuse history. Other stresses specific to multiples include
lost time, waking up in the middle of situations and having to
appear as if you know what is going on, and trying to find ways to
continue funct-ioning when all you want is to hide under your bed
forever. All of this can leave your nerves ragged and muscles
bunched up in tension. It can also drain you of emotional
strength. Headaches are a natural result. Considerable physical
stress is also a consequence of having a dissociative disorder as
you use your physical senses to contain and come to terms with
your psychological disabilities and "strange"
experiences. Take derealisation, for example: a common occurrence
of dissociative misperception wherein the world seems distorted or
two-dimensional. The effort to focus your vision all the time can
cause eye strain and, subsequently, acute headache. On top of
this, it can be incredibly distressing, frustrating, and
frightening to experience episodes of derealisation. The emotional
toll is enough in itself to cause headache. But it doesn't end
there because, in addition to the physical effects of trying to
deal with dissociative misperceptions, and the emotional effects
of it, most dissociators also fight hard to hold everything
together and look "normal" to the outside world. This
can be exhausting, especially when selves are struggling to get
out. As the brain works furiously to manage all these layers of
stress, the dissociator develops a worsening headache.
To ease stress headaches,
find what works best for you to decrease swollen, tense muscles.
This is different for everyone - some prefer ice whereas others
need to stand in a warm shower. Massage can be helpful. Music is
soothing but, for some people, the noise simply adds another layer
of stimulus onto the load the brain is already having to deal
with. Some find the only thing they can do to help the pain is
sleep. This works by giving your body a chance to rest and
revitalise.
There are also a number of
self-hypnotic techniques you can use to let the stress and pain
go. As dissociators are highly hypnotisable, these techniques can
be particularly effective. You can create any hypnotic scenario
you want from your own imagination. For example, fill your mind
with a gentle, soothing colour that washes the pain away.
OVERSTIMULATION: Multiples
are very prone to pressure-type headaches caused by too much
incoming stimulus. This barrage of psychic "noise"
includes things which impact on all our senses and overwhelm them.
It may come from inside - for example, too many alter selves
standing near the front of consciousness. The noise may also come
from outside - too much sound, too many bright colours that blur
infront of your eyes. There are two probable reasons why multiples
are overly sensitive to external stimuli - because of their
chronic abuse experiences, multiples have developed a
hyper-alertness which means they are constantly aware of
everything around them incase danger is lurking - and because they
have so many different "eyes" perceiving the world
around them, often simultaneously. As one survivor put it,
"Sometimes things have too much meaning. It's as if we're all
looking at something at the same time, and our different
perceptions get jumbled-up and become too much to cope with, and
then our head feels as if it's going to explode. And of course we
all have separate feelings and opinions for what we see. It can be
unbearable. There are so many eyes/minds, but only one sensory
system to process everything. Even just a walk down the city
street can leave us with a crippling (but somehow painless)
headache."
To help ease headaches cause
by overstimulation, ask inside for everyone to step back and give
you some space and quiet. Explain that it is more effective for
them to tell you about their experiences when you have time and
energy to listen properly. Alternatively, they may like to write
their thoughts/feelings in a journal if they can't wait. Some
multiples find it helpful to carry pen and paper around with them
for this purpose.
There are ways to achieve
ventilation of some of the noise - deep breathing exercises are
good for this, and again you can use a number of self-hypnotic
techniques, such as picturing a steam-valve on the side of your
neck.
If you find it overwhelming
to go out in public surrounded by "noise pollution", you
could try wearing a walkman that playing peaceful, soothing music
which blocks out the other noise.
SWITCHING: Switching
from one alter self to another causes headache mainly when there
is some kind of conflict between the selves for control. The
solution to this is better commun-ication and co-operation within
your system. When there is a disagreement about who should be
"out", many selves may be happy to accept a third party
to take the out position as act as a mediator so both voices can
be heard through her. Often this third party is an automaton self
who has few sensitivities of her own, and so is not disturbed by
being a channel through which others can communicate.
Another suggestion is that,
instead of coming completely out, the two selves stand in a place
on the edge of inside, where they can be heard without a complete
switch having to occur. Most people find that, as their
co-consciousness increases, struggles for control (and the
consequent headaches) cease to be a problem.
There are some multiples who
experience headache or other symptoms, such as nausea or
dizziness, with even the most uncomplicated and unconflicted
switches. This is usually the case for those who are early in
their healing process, or whose dissociative barriers are
profound. It is not surprising when you consider the physiological
changes that happen when a multiple switches between alter selves.
It has been proven that selves have their own unique pattern of
brainwaves. Furthermore, everyone has at different ages a
different biochemistry and mental capacity - thus the switch from
adult to child is going to be more physiologically complex than
between two adults.
SPILLAGE: When alters
have disputes between themselves at a subconscious level, or when
one is seething because of some anxiety they have, the tension
often emerges in the form of headache. In this way, the person who
is out may have a migraine without being aware that it is being
caused by a stroppy teenager who is figuratively stomping around
inside because she is angry about something. Alter selves are also
notorious for sending headaches to the front person as a kind of
message. This headache can be seen as a kind of acting out. In
cases like these, pain-killing medication is of no use, because
there is no actual physiological problem - the pain results from
emotional disturbance. It is necessary to get the selves talking
to you about what is going on for them. If they are willing to do
this, there is a better chance they will get their needs met than
if they simply radiate wordless feelings and pain.
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If
you are going to work with ritual abuse survivors, you must
also get educated if you want to be effective. And you must
learn to be humble. Trauma survivors do not need to be
around ignorant, modern-day Pharisees. Survivors in pain
need people who will connect with them on an emotional
level, get right down in there where they are, and listen. --Kathleen
Sullivan |
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