On Being a Proper Multiple
By Sara Lambert
When most people think about what it
means to be multiple, they go immediately to the
"classic" cases of early MPD documentation - multiples
like Sybil and Eve White/Black, who demonstrated extremely
pronounced changes between their different personalities,
accompanied by profound dissociative amnesia. For example, upon
switching, they would insist on being called another name and
make little or no secret of being a separate entity from the
former inhabitant of the body. Their posture, speech patterns,
and mannerisms would radically change. They would often have no
memory of what other selves had been doing in their absence and,
once they left, they would be out of the information loop until
their next appearance. Unfortunately, because this highly
dramatic, fascinating, and filmic image of MPD has embedded
itself in our popular culture, more subtle variations on the
diagnosis often go unnoticed or misdiagnosed by therapists, and
many multiples are missing out on the treatment they need. The
following subheadings are all generalisations or outright
fictions which commonly cause multiples to question the
truth of their diagnosis.
MPD IS VERY RARE: Conservative
estimates of the proliferance of MPD state that one person in
every hundred is multiple. This is far from "rare".
The lingering false belief that multiplicity is scarce is due to
three facts.
- Only in the past 20 years or so has
there been widespread belief, both professionally and
popularly, in the existence of dissociative disorders (and
some people still don't believe in MPD). Before this time,
it was hard for therapists treating multiples to get peer
support for the diagnosis, let alone have their findings
published. For example, Dr Wilbur, Sybil's therapist, had to
ask a journalist to write a novelisation of the case after
she was unable to find a psychiatric journal which would
publish her dissertation. This disbelief was responsible for
the misdiagnosis of thousands of multiples, who were
commonly labelled with depression, hysteria and
schizophrenia.
- The early documented cases of
multiplicity, which influenced the field of study for so
many years, were not explicitly linked to child abuse as the
causal factor for MPD. Despite loosely associating it with a
patient history of a "difficult childhood", there
is very little discussion about extreme childhood trauma
being the root of MPD. Infact, none of the early case
studies showed the extreme abuse histories that multiples
these days report, including ritual abuse. The most famous
multiple of this time, Eve White/Black, was not even abused
as a child and, indeed, had a happy, loving family.
Furthermore, thanks to influences like Freud, with his
theories of little girls fantasising of sex with their
fathers, as well as a patriarchal society which protected
the reputation of men at the expense of their daughters,
child abuse was not considered a serious issue in those
days. Therefore it may be theorised that psychologists of
the time were not looking in-depth at the very section of
the population (abuse survivors) to whom are now attributed
97% of MPD diagnoses.
- Although psychiatrists have
been aware of multiplicity for hundreds of years, study of
the condition was fairly new in the first part of this
century. While the dramatic, bizarre symptoms of the overt
multiple were almost impossible to miss, psychiatrists did
not yet have the understanding or skills to recognise the
more typical picture of multiplicity - one of obsessive
secrecy, masked symptoms, terror of exposure, and intense
post-traumatic stress. The increase in numbers of MPD
diagnoses over the years seems to support the opinion that
the only thing rare about MPD is the ostentatious variety of
the condition. As therapists become more skilled at, and
more open to, recognising the subtleties and secrets of
multiplicity, more true multiples are being diagnosed.
SYBIL IS THE TYPICAL MULTIPLE: Perhaps
the case which causes the most problems for multiples is that of
Sybil. She is an icon of multiplicity. Most of the current
diagnostic criteria for MPD can be found in her story. Even so,
many multiples fear they are not "proper multiples"
because they're not like Sybil. For example, they do not simply
walk into their therapist's office and announce themselves as a
different personality. They do not lose big chunks of time,
waking up in a different city, not knowing how they got there. A
comprehensive study of the differences between Sybil and
modern-day multiples has yet to be done. This article is not the
place to go into such depth, but there are a few basic points
which can be made.
- Sybil had met and bonded with Dr
Wilbur years before going to her for intensive therapy, and
infact had moved cities and saved money for years so she
could see Dr Wilbur again. Furthermore, a great deal of
therapeutic groundwork was done before Sybil's other selves
made themselves known to the doctor, a fact which is not
always remembered.
- Sybil's mother was her only abuser.
She had a loving, although distant, father. She was not
abused after leaving home and, in fact, led a quiet life
populated by various friends. Her mother was dead by the
time Sybil entered psycho-analysis. Perhaps for these
reasons, Sybil's system was not so obsessed with maintaining
their secret existence, because the threat to their lives
was gone.
- The influential alters in Sybil's
system displayed quite borderline characteristics, with a
tendency to act out internal conflicts. It is a common
misconception that all multiples are borderline and likely
to act out in this way. Many multiples are infact highly
concerned with controlling themselves and their
circumstances. Many label themselves "perfectionist
control freaks" and always keep a tight rein on their
behaviour. Even before they know they are multiple, they
invest huge amounts of energy in acting and appearing
singleton.
My consistent experience as a researcher and supporter to many
other multiples is that the typical picture of modern MPD is one
of subtlety, secretiveness, and intense post-traumatic stress
which complicate and mask the multiplicity.
ALTERS TAKE OVER THE BODY WHEN
THEY COME OUT: Most of the
time, multiples do not switch completely or overtly. Rather,
they commonly experience internal switches where selves
influence their feelings and actions rather than coming
"out" to take possession of the body. This creates
sensations like hearing words coming out of your mouth that
don't belong to you, seeing the world as if you are taller or
shorter, having someone else's feelings and thoughts overlapping
your own, and so on. There is little external indication of
multiplicity. Your voice doesn't change. You don't suddenly
announce that you are Sue instead of Harriet. Often, this
"behind-the-scenes" action is a matter of safety. Many
feel being entirely present in the world is dangerous. They
worry that their abusers will somehow be able to sense their
presence and come to get them. More generally, others fear being
seen because, in the past, that always led to being abused. As a
result, their other selves tend to operate from a safe distance,
behind the primary person.
A MULTIPLE LOSES TIME WHEN HER OTHER
SELVES ARE PRESENT: A number of
multiples do not lose any sense of an observing self, even when
their other selves completely emerge. They always have present,
at some level, their "host" (also known as the primary
person, body person or the person who has the MPD.) This person
may sit back and watch what the new self is doing. Some
therapists call this co-consciousness and state that it is
"less multiple" than the experience of those who have
blank spells when their other selves emerge. I disagree with
this, for three reasons.
- Event amnesia, where a person loses time, is not the only
type of amnesia possible. Identity amnesia, which sees a
person adopts another identity, also fits the criteria for
"extensive forgetting of personal details" which
people must experience in order to have MPD, without
necessarily losing track of time. In other words, the person
becomes the other self, instead of an exchange of selves.
This is sometimes known as possessiform multiplicity.
- Nothing in MPD is simple. It is not necessary for selves
to come out only in discrete succession. There can be more
than one self present at the same time. Even if a multiple's
primary person is present when her other selves emerge, she
typically has little or no control over them. They do and
say exactly what they want. The primary person can not
necessarily anticipate anything, nor stop anything from
happening. She is merely an observer. Sometimes, she may
hold the body and do the speaking for the other selves, so
they do not have to take physical occupation. At these
times, it simply appears that she is the one talking. Very
little about her may change, except perhaps her manner of
speaking and something about her aura or presence. To the
other person in the room, nothing "multiple" seems
to be happening, unless they are experienced with
multiplicity and can sense the layering of selves. But the
primary person is not speaking on her own behalf, nor does
she have any influence over the things she is saying. She is
merely a channel, a mediator between inside and out. This
talking-through phenomenon may be most common amongst those
multiples who have very large systems, or systems in which
there is no "person who has MPD", but where the
entire system is the person - in other words, an
"inside out" format.
- For many people, having relatively continuous sense of
time is an important defence mechanism that the system
deliberately arranges and regulates. This is not something
mentioned in MPD textbooks or biographies, but it has come
up in my consulting work with people who have confirmed MPD
diagnoses. A number had big blanks in their childhood but
now lose time subtly enough that they tend to claim they
just have a bad memory. The thought of losing hours or weeks
is appalling to them. I theorise that some multiples stop
having significant blank spells when their recurrent amnesia
becomes a danger to them (perhaps at the point in
childhood when they actually notice that they have been
losing time, or when they realise that other people do not
have the same experience.) It would not be safe, as a child
living in a chronically abusive situation, to be constantly
jarred and confused by missing time. Someone might notice
and start asking questions that would uncover the abuse the
child was trying so desperately to hide - or, worse, the
abusers would not notice that the child was aware something
was wrong with herself or her life. Therefore the inner
system may have organised itself so the child would not have
big losses of time (except of course for the hours during
which the abuse occurred.) When she did lose time, the
knowledge that she had was erased from her mind. Having an
adult observer who is always present at some level of
awareness, holding the body in an adult state, may mean that
the multiple does not exhibit the pronounced physical
changes that other, more explicit multiples often
experience, such as changes in vision, physically regressed
behaviour in the child selves, and so on. When she switches,
there may be little/no physical indication at all.
ALTER SELVES ARE ALWAYS DISTINCT: Contrary to popular
perception and the wishes of therapists, not all selves have
names, nor does a multiple or her system always know who is
speaking at any given time. For some multiples, dissociation
exists on many layers inside the system. Certain selves may be
extremely dissociative or multiple. Others may exist on a
sliding chronological scale - in other words, one day they are
five years old, the next day they are eight. Some systems have a
centralised memory bank which different selves can access at
different times, and which can shut down completely when
required, locking everyone out. In such a system, a person may
remember something one day but not the next. Also, the memory
bank may hold not only memories but information about the
different selves - for example, a self may be unaware at times
of her own identity, because for some reason she has been cut
off from the memory bank. In terms of naming, it is common for
multiples to give names their other selves for the first time
after the selves have come forward to tell their story and be
identified. Prior to this, inner selves have had no need for an
individual name, or have felt that to be named would be to
expose themselves to risk.
MULTIPLES HEAR VOICES IN THEIR HEAD: A number of
multiples do not hear voices at all. Instead, they experience
"loud thoughts" or thoughts/feelings that they know
are not their own.
STRANGE THINGS IN THE CLOSET: A major feature of MPD
folklore is the mysterious appearance of items in the closets of
multiples. Many of us joke about the shoes that don't fit, the
10 pots of butter we have in our fridge. But many of us never
experience this phenomenon and can identify the origin of every
item in our household, even if we don't necessarily approve of
their presence. This is not evidence of non-multiplicity. It can
actually be evidence of a number of things - being too poor to
spend indiscriminately, having good selves-control, being
organised, one self alone being responsible for the money, or
having a continuous observer-self, whose awareness of, for
example, what's already in the fridge or the painful reality
that feet do not change size along with a change of selves, can
help regulate spending.
MULTIPLES CALL THEMSELVES "WE": Use of
the plural self-indicator seems to be something that happens
after the multiple has accepted her diagnosis, and often
develops simply for the sake of convenience, or as a way of
making it clear that the primary person does not admit
responsibility for what is being said or done, although it may
become increasingly comfortable or habitual over time. Some
multiples feel they ought to train themselves to say
"we" even though it is strange, after a lifetime of
saying "I", and even though it feels like dangerous
exposure of the internal reality.
MULTIPLES HAVE A GENIUS I.Q.: Unfortunately, multiples
are not necessarily any more intelligent than other non-traumatised
singleton people. It is true that multiples may have more
acquired skills than others, because their different selves have
pursued different interests - and multiples do have extra
physical and mental energy to help them with these pursuits. It
is also true that multiples may be more open-minded than other
people, because their self-system contains so many different
perspectives; paradoxically, however, individual selves in
the system are usually very close-minded and deny the beliefs of
others both inside and out of the system.
It must be made clear that the diagnostic criteria for MPD are
quite specific. To be a multiple, a person must have two or more
alter selves who have their own ideas about themselves and their
world. This is more than merely having different aspects to your
personality or even different inner parts. Alters are
"someone else". They can take over the person's
behaviour and/or body, during which time the person loses time
and/or a complete sense of her personal identity. However, I
believe one of the most important things to remember about MPD
is that it is personality-based - a way of being, rather than a
structured state. The form of multiplicity for each person
reflects the uniqueness of their personality and, because of
this, there are as many rich, complex and different expressions
of multiplicity as there are multiples. Meeting the three
diagnostic criteria makes someone multiple - the rest is just
style.
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If
you are going to work with ritual abuse survivors, you
must also get educated if you want to be effective. And
you must learn to be humble. Trauma survivors do not need
to be around ignorant, modern-day Pharisees. Survivors in
pain need people who will connect with them on an
emotional level, get right down in there where they are,
and listen. --Kathleen Sullivan |
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